Its mere presence makes me feel
that it is right but when I come again and try to rectify that something
different that came to me, when in a dedeep trance in the holy month of Ramadaan.
I see
but very few things around that speak about the sanctity of religion or givethem a feel of god’s blessing upon us. We Indians treat thisthese festivalsnin anothery, bt a but say every happening has a sheer learning experience that whichs
us through our lives. When I came to know that this festival is is called a cracleare Ramadan, the ninth month of the Islamic calendar, is a "month
of blessing" marked by prayer, fasting, and charity. Muslims believe that
during the month of Ramadan, Allah
revealed the first verses of the Qur'an, the holy book of Islam. I stand
as a person who has no knowknowledgege at goGods, my parents said me taught me that we are
hindusHinduseities are omnipresent in nature they are in the reincarnation of
wind ,water ,air etc ,as the five elements of nature. I can feel the five
elements but do they really look like or have a reflection of Bramha or Vishnu
or Mahesh. Indian saints ,sufi saints ,bhakti cult saints they took up the
charge to build the belief of god on humanity through songs and chants. These
mere poems or the lyrical presentation of tunes they say it as Music, Mausiqui, Sangeet etc. This becomes the medium to
explain the teachings of the great lessons forwardedcarriedrying from past
hundred years.
As per human understanding and human metrics a
person knows that whatever is acceptable by the sense organs are a part of human
stimulus. If a song or lyrics is sung or recited out than if the language is
being understood by the following person he would appreciate or something he
will react to the situation as per the song and lyrics in it, he may also turn
his face and move away, these happens because these things are generated by
either the tonal effect of our voice or the imitation of the tunes through a
lyrical presentation.
It can be in anger too , songs and romance
nowadays go hand in hand, musicians like us hardly get people who come from our
repertoire. If a boy loves a girl obviously as said ,if you’re in love either you’ll
become a poet or a singer . The person likes music in this state of mind when
he is in love with someone ,he imagines all the unseen things happening infront
of him as a mirage in the hot sun,from far it seems as mirror but it is the
heat that rises from the surface.
People often ask me do you love anyone or they
say you love everyone, actually I am confused is really a love is what having a
girl beside you and you see to it that it is being obliged properly. When
considering each and every aspect I believe that love is something which comes
out of your pain in accepting it and yet still it gives happiness. I like a
girl but does it really matter when I am sleeping or in a meditative state was
she with me when I was in a death bed in my past life. Many questions arise
,many queries also arise, people say these questions are only answerable by god
, I asked Rama, I asked Christ, I asked Allah….they dint replied may be they
are too in love with me in expecting something in return or may be in the
population of millions and trillions they cant see me. Absent reason I loved my
mother a lot, I can say it as a love because I lived with my mother she had a
care and concern. I still find my love in my deeds,helping a third person who
is nothing to me, I see god when I help the people in need. May be they feel
that lets use him ; I never cared all these because these were the best part
where I stand as a candle shining or comes to their concerns when darkness
descends upon them.
Jesus Christ was crucified because the roman
priests thought that he is a rebel to the kingdom. I say never chase high ,be on the high, a spiritual
highness is more important than the materialistic happiness,it may give you
satisfaction. Satisfaction is not happiness, rather the peace you get after
satisfaction is happiness. The pain you enjoy after bleeding in making a note successful
.
Why am I speaking all of these ,oh yes I am out
of the flow ,I mixed up everything Love,Religion,facts etc . I cant be like
Ludwig Van Beethoven or Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. I am a fortunate person who doesn’t
possess a super power to see god. A meditation done from my childhood ,that is practicing
my music ,the rhythm itself speaks. It takes about 3-4 months to get almost a scale
set in the voice because it the organ which produces sound as the vocal cord is
being to that purpose.
My critics used to say during my childhood
days. “You play the dead skin ,you don’t possess the knowledge of music “.
Indeed that wasn’t an insult to me but a learning to chase for the cause and purpose I am sent for, and
that is music. One thing undisputed remains in my hand at last from my age of
one and that is Tabla. This instrument is a base to everything that happened in
my life . where I could perhaps at this stage of life in the month of Ramadan see Allah,and the next month may be I can see Lord Ganesha, I don’t know
but this regular practice made me to learn to live a life of a human who seizes
an opportunity to live happy everyday. Tunes from the dead skin,the elements of
nature help me in making this successful. My hand got fractured recently still I
practice at the tempo of 120 beats per minute. It pains a lot indeed but It is
what I believe is more than love, you embrace the pain in order to reach the
unknown, your maalik or god. Many few people can say and see it as a beauty
, the people who do are gifted or being touched by the angels. While playing a
repetitive drum roll composition , in full concentration, with sweat and pain ,I
found that it was THERE; IT(here
means or is represented by god) when I opened my eyes,it was NOWHERE…..when again at a confluence of pain and
love goes on for three hours continuously I found it was EVERYWHERE. Now I understand,it
is been crystal clear and also dark as the unrevealed secret of life. The echoes in
eternity are only possible when you are with your work where you control the
five elements of nature because it was you who was gifted with this rare gift
to understand. Respect the Work and Respect the Love you have for it. Then it
makes you perfect for loving yourself and again in loving another person likewise.
